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Month: December, 2014

Wordless Wednesday

I echo the sentiments above. Happy New Year to everyone and hope 2015 brings joy to everyone.

Reflections for my Soul

Happy New Year! I hope this year all of our dreams and desires are realize.

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Pangur Bán, AKA “Rocket Butt*”

Such a cute cat and aptly named “Rocket Butt”

Finish that fairy tale… Part 1…

This could be a good idea or a lousy one. Here’s hoping it’s the former.

Pouring My Art Out

I thought this might be a fun idea. I am going to write a few very short, single paragraph beginnings to fairy tales. Then, in the comments, you get to finish them. You can make it as weird as you want… Although bear in mind that I do try to keep this blog family friendly. More or less.

I guess you could think of this as a writing prompt of sorts. If nothing else, we get to exercise our creativity. Also, I am going to do the rest of the posts in this series with no explanation at all… Just a few silly sentences that trail off in my trademark ‘…’ So if you are in on it from the beginning, you will know what is happening, but there are going to be some confused people around here.

Yay, crack squirrels!

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The Stupids

The Stupids.

I stumbled across this by chance. It’s very good and I hope you don’t mind if I reblog this.

Well it’s getting near the end

As 2014 comes to a close it is a time for reflection on the last 12 months, the ups and downs, the laughs, the tears. 2014 was the year I turned 60, it was also the year I started to feel better after a long spell of depression, this culminated in my being offered and accepting a new job. I began to get worried when it took 4 weeks to get my clearance through, then the job I’d been hired to do had been filled as they couldn’t wait for my security clearance. After a further 5 weeks of twiddling my thumbs a new opportunity came my way, it meant travelling to Cambridge and Warrington for a period of 3 months (this was extended from 4 weeks to 3 months and then became 4 months). If I had my doubts about my suitability for this position they were soon dropped when I started learning what the job entailed.

There were opportunities to progress as time went on, I watched as I was being taught how to do the job. Not easy when the access for me had not been granted. This came through 10 days before the new system was piloted. This system is being used widely in the USA and has been opened to 1 hospital in Europe, in the Netherlands, but this is different in so many ways. It’s the first time for the NHS (publicly funded with no charges for those eligible for treatment). It’s also the first hospital to be supported by a third party company. Epic have a contract with the hospital to provide the software, HP (my company) provided the hardware and is supporting this. It’s a 10 year contract so I hope I get the opportunity to stay with it until I retire just after I turn 70.

2014 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

Here's an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 550 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 9 trips to carry that many people.

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Gone to Hell?

Today I decided that I was going to post once again on here. I’ve spent the last few weeks engrossed with work, as I’m off for the holidays I can’t use that excuse any more. I spent the last few days catching up with friends both on and off here.

Now, I was taught that if you can’t find anything nice to say about someone then you should say nothing at all. Pity there are too many people in the world today who want to shout at others, they are who they think they are! I don’t, and won’t drop into the gutter to give them recognition on here. Suffice to say trolling adds nothing to any conversation and lets the world see them as they really are, nobodies.

I make a point of finding positives now, what a difference a year makes! Last year I was in pieces, therapy was helping although very slowly, then I started talking control of myself once more. The process speeded up when a company said they believed in me and offered me a chance to turn my life around. Needless to say I grabbed this opportunity with both hands and my transformation is now complete (Search in your heart, Luke, I am your father). Since I started working again I have been finding positives everywhere and I feel better for this.

The strange thing about depression is the way you spiral down into the depths without others noticing that you are quiet most of the time and spend more and more time on your own. If you’re in company then you sit on the edge and won’t contribute. When you do pluck up the courage to speak you will make others laugh at your witty comments, just to prevent others from guessing how you really feel.

Why is that? Every time I start feeling better something goes wrong and it all falls apart, this sends me deeper into despair than I was before. There is an intranet site that I found very supportive and that makes me think why? If you look at the negatives around you with fresh eyes then you can often turn this around and find positives there.

I started this post off today to give hope to those being stalked and to look for answers within and without themselves. You are going through Hell at the moment but if you have friends then you’re not alone and you will get by with a little help from your friends.

It’s been a long, long, time

Now I’m so happy I found you It took a long, long, long time Now I’m so happy to be here

Working long hours spending weeks at a time living out of a suitcase takes its toll on anyone but for someone who has a mental illness and a weak back it can be hell. Still back home now and I’ve been working from home for the last few weeks thank Gods for a boss who allowed me time to heal. I will venture into the office next week since I have 11 days to use up before the end of the year so I will be off from 15 December for 3 whole weeks (2 of which the office is closed anyway). I think I owe it to the rest of the team to make an effort and go in for my last 5 shifts.

I had a whole idea when I started this tonight to apologise, get my feelings out there and then tell a story, without giving too many details. I’m not sure it would work without a little background so here goes, we get sent requests for help via email, given that we’re supporting a Cambridge Hospital from Newcastle it means we rely on the “network” team to give us background information when they email us about a printer problem. I tried pinging the printer in question, no joy. So I tried opening its web site again no joy. I then sent it back to the network team and asked them to go to the pharmacy and make sure the printer was on and had a stock of labels. They immediately sent it back to me saying it was my job to check the printer. When I told them they’d have to reimburse my train fare, clear the 8 hour round trip with my boss AND reimburse my taxi fare to the hospital and back to the train station which would be somewhere in the region of £250 all told. I sent this back to them and heard nothing back. They either found the printer was off or out of labels or both and put it right.

That’s enough for now so I’m going to bed and we can catch up again soon, I hope.