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I’m doing the best that I can

I was asked to provide a statement on domestic abuse to the Government so that they can legislate against this growing issue in the UK. There are a lot of different types of abuse and I’m subjected to physical, emotional and economic abuse by my wife.

It has been getting worse over the last few months since I lost my job, because I am unable to claim any benefit as we are together so she is refusing to allow me to spend any of the money we have in the bank. Just before I lost my last job I cashed in a pension fund which was going to pay me £953 per annum from the age of 65. As this was not enough to do anything with I decided to cash it in and received £45,000 and change. She has been spending this money as though it were her own personal fund and if I spend so much as a penny she wants to know what I’m thinking of as I don’t have any income.

When I try pointing out to her that her income doesn’t cover the bills, so we need the money in the bank to last until 19/11/2019 when I qualify for my State Pension, she hits me. If I move so she misses she kicks out or throws things at me, then it’s my fault that what she throws breaks. The emotional abuse is much less obvious as when we are out in public she makes a big thing out of holding my hand. When we are in the privacy of our home it’s a different story. If I try to instigate sex, she pushes me away and tells me that I’ve gone off her(?) Of course I have that’s why I want to have sex with her.

If we’re in the kitchen together, I’m in her way, even when I ask her to move so I can get things out of the cupboard. I can’t do right for doing wrong and she wonders why I’ve stopped applying for jobs? I was applying for 10-15 jobs each and every day until she started putting me on edge and then it dropped to a maximum of 5 per week, now I refuse to reapply for positions I never heard back about, or for companies who have knocked me back several times in the last 4 months. Of course this isn’t good enough for her ladyship so I have stopped applying for anything these days.

If I tell her that it will start another major row and I’m already on egg shells around her. If I could force her out I would, but without any income I can’t afford to leave. Does anyone have any ideas on how to get around this problem as I really can’t take much more before I either throw her out or kill her.

Music today is from the concept album that changed popular music forever in 1967, courtesy of YouTube, as always the copyright is owned by UMG and not by me but please enjoy nonetheless.


But when you talk about destruction Don’t you know that you can count me out

I saw something interesting yesterday, and the day before, so I thought I should really post my feelings on the topics and, at least for a while, try to post items more frequently than once a week.

The thing I saw the day before yesterday was a comment on using indicator blinking lights while driving (yes I’ve posted about this here before). It was actually a sign (probably not a real sign unless found outside a church) which read:

God moves in mysterious ways but you don’t have to, you should use your blinkers.

This was from a twitter feed I follow, and I had to like it and post a comment to say how much I liked it. That’s all I’m saying on the subject in this post.

The other thing I found yesterday was a petition on asking the Mayor of London to consider erecting a statue to remind people about Steven Lawrence, apologies if Steven should have been spelt with a ph in the middle. Steven Lawrence was waiting for a bus in London when 5 youths came up and beat him to death – because of his skin colour. So far only 2 have been jailed and the other 3 are still at large. This case proved how rife racism was in the Metropolitan Police, they didn’t want it investigated as it was a race hate crime.

I will repeat once again in case you missed it, it was racially motivated, Steven was black and all his attackers were white. Makes no difference if Steven was purple with yellow spots, the colour of his skin is no excuse to kill him. People from black, white, brown and Asian families were incensed and have been asking for the investigation to be made public so that we can have justice carried out for Steven. After all we are all of us one race, we are all members of the Human Race. My heart goes out to everyone who has ever been a victim of race hate or sex hate, violence is not necessary and we should all shout out together to end violence now, today.

There is one other thing I would like to say to all those campaigning tirelessly to end racism and racist attacks, whether they use the #BlackLivesMatter or not, we are all with you brothers and sisters. Black, white, red, or any other colour makes no difference, we can only make a difference if we stand united and together on the barricades. I don’t care if you are black, white, red, brown or purple with yellow spots, you deserve to be treated with respect. Whether you are a man, woman or somewhere in between, you also deserve to be treated with respect. Anyone who tries to take away the human rights of any one of our brothers and sisters tries to take our rights away.

We all have the right to love whoever we choose, without prejudice, we all have the right to live our lives peacefully, wherever we live. Anyone who commits rape, and that is having sexual relationships without explicit consent, deserves to be punished to the full extent of the law, makes no difference if they are the President of the United States or a homeless man, they are not above the law.

Music is celebrating the 50th anniversary super deluxe edition of The Beatles which will be released on 9 November 2018. The music was found on YouTube but I do not own the copyright, please enjoy.

I’ve had enough of reading things By neurotic psychotic pigheaded politicians

Is it just me? Is it just in my head? Or does anyone else feel the current spate of floods and hurricane force winds is Mother Nature trying to get us to stop destroying this planet?

Can I really be going insane? Is it really so well hidden that heavy rain and high winds are being caused by the melting polar ice-caps and destruction of forests on a massive scale?

There are too many psychotic pigheaded politicians today saying that global warming is a myth and the planet isn’t dying. I feel that the current state of natural phenomena is growing worse the more huge corporations are destroying the natural environment chasing ever bigger profits.

When our leaders bury their heads in the sand to appease the fat cats what chance is there for the rest of us? Especially when one of those fat cats is the leader of the free world. What can we do to stop the ever more powerful oil companies from destroying more and more of the natural defences we have around us?

Can we continue to sit back and do nothing when the planet is beginning to fight back? The time has come to choose a side, either destroy this planet so we all die, or fight those trying to annihilate everyone by destroying this planet to make another dollar and boost their bank balances even further.

I choose to support the planet and feel that enough is enough and we need to make a stand and say no further that’s enough. This has to be done while there is a chance we can leave something behind for our children.

There is time if we act now and all act together. Next year is the 50th anniversary of the biggest weekend in modern music history when for 3 days 500,000 people squeezed into a muddy field for 3 days of music and art and left without any trouble, fights or deaths and even 2 births recorded that weekend. Let’s try and get 1969 back on track for all our sakes.

Now, on a different note, I was in the process of doing a windows update for my wife yesterday when the manufacturer said the bios needed to be updated or the laptop would stop working so I did this update and since then I have been unable to get into windows 10. The laptop gets so far through loading everything up then a screen comes up advising there is an issue with the laptop and it has to shut down. It never gets beyond this screen and although there is an option for recovery nothing seems to allow access to the recovery files and windows want a product key from this laptop in order to allow me to download the files needed to a disc.

Need to get the laptop working for her but without being able to boot from the recovery disk partition there is no chance of doing anything.

Music today is from YouTube by John Lennon, as always the copyright is owned by his estate and Universal Music not me.

Live those dreams Scheme those schemes

Here we are and here we are and here we go. Well it’s time to write again or else I’ll get back into a bad spiral of not writing on here very often. I had things I wanted to say during the week so it was added on here before I forgot and now there is nothing to add but today is my day for writing a post so I am back again to do just that.

Normally, if I have nothing to say I generally keep quiet, however, in my current state of mind I know if I don’t get on here and post something then I won’t post anything else for a long time. I’m sinking in a deep dark hole, like I did in 2009/10 and this time I know I’m going so I am trying to avoid getting deeper into a depression.

Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup they slither as they make their way across the universe. I am not sure whether to tell you everything I am going through or to leave it as it is. I have added a music video to this post but the copyright belongs to ZTT and Frankie Goes To Hollywood not me.


This record was banned in 1984 for promoting homosexuality, there have been a lot of songs with innuendo in the lyrics since 1955 and they weren’t banned for being, generally, heterosexual oriented. Therefore, why was Relax banned for being laced with innuendo when the others hadn’t? There was a song in the 1970’s by Chuck Berry banned for being sexually blatant while it wasn’t to those who listened to the lyrics. Relax helped to bring the revolution to the forefront and did help to revise opinion in favour of gay men being given rights under the law. Homosexuality had been decriminalised in 1967, too late for Brian Epstein but made a welcome change in the law.

We need to realise that human rights belong to each and every one of us without exception. If we don’t then we will allow people like Trump to flourish and grow in stature and impotence. All it takes for evil to thrive is for good people to do nothing. We can’t allow this to happen again, we don’t want a repeat of 1932 Germany, especially not in the most powerful country in the Western World.

I try not to offer my politics in these blogs but sometimes I have to. When I see injustice which was blatant last week in a post on Twitter by Trump I feel that I have to point out the similarity between his video and one from 1930’s Nuremberg where Hitler’s supporters kept cheering and applauding for a full 20 minutes before he was able to start his speech. The similarities between the dumpster and Hitler are becoming more obvious the longer he is in power as POTUS. If re-elected, I believe he will outlaw Congress and declare himself President for life then it will only be his death which will allow the return to democracy.

Love and peace to all dear readers, and I hope we can prevent a return to the days of outright war between countries as the current world war is bad enough when the enemy hides in plain sight refusing to wear any uniform to identify himself as an enemy combatant. Especially when the biggest supporter of terror is running the most powerful Western Nation on the planet.

It can’t get much worse

Well, here I am again at a loose end. No music to add here as I’m writing this on an iPad not a laptop and Apple, apparently, don’t like playing YouTube videos outside the app. Ho hum, no prize offered for today’s song choice even though you will only hear it inside your head.

Anyway, I’m still out of work but thought I’d try something different, a cat visiting service for those people who work crazy shifts. Kind of like a dog walker only cats don’t need exercise. So far I have had no takers, hardly surprising since cats are very independent and don’t want anyone except their slave taking care of their needs.

Why do people wanting a pet decide on a cat? Me, I don’t like dogs, hate the thought of having to take them out late at night, when it’s raining, snowing or blowing a gale. I’m not cruel to any animals but there’s something about a cat that’s very appealing. They’re independent, own you not the other way round, and can be very affectionate when they want to be.

If you’ve never had a cat try visiting someone who has one at home and see how they take to you. Dogs take to anyone, even when mistreated they will return to their home, mistreat a cat and it will attack then disappear. Cats can’t be taught tricks like a dog so you’re never going to find a drug sniffing cat, or a bomb detector cat. It’s not that they aren’t capable of doing it, but they will only do it when they want to.

I have taken cats in when they came to me for food and shelter and they stayed for years. I have had a few dogs as well and they were never mistreated by me but I still couldn’t wait to get them returned to their owners or have someone take them off me. They were generally sorry to leave but I just don’t like the smell off a wet dog.

To change topic again, I have seen some strange things recently that defy logic. Seems not everyone with a BMW drives without regard for others. I have seen several actually using indicators to let people know where they are going, I know right? I used to think that if you wanted a BMW they gave you a lobotomy before allowing you to drive it away.

That’s not all, I also saw one keeping to the speed limit, doing 20mph in a 20 zone! I kid you not. But then I saw another BMW go tearing past and turn right into oncoming traffic without using an indicator. Seems there are still idiots driving around in BMW’s.

If you want to get in touch please leave a message on this post or email me, I will respond to every message and have started to visit this site more regularly than before. If you know the song which gave me the title please send the answer on a stamped undressed elephant to the usual address for your area.

How we break each other’s hearts

I know I wrote a post yesterday and this is not due until next weekend but I’ve been thinking a lot today about life and death. What makes someone accept death one day and not another? Obviously if someone is terminally ill then they can look forward to the day their suffering ends. Similarly, if someone is old and frail they may look forward to the day when they are no longer a burden on those closest to them.

I met death while I was a child and have shaken hands with him a few times over the years, he never took me as my time is not yet due. However, I feel ready to greet him when my time is over here. Whenever that time comes I will greet death as an old friend and I will not fear the time when he comes for me. After all no-one will ever get out of here alive.

Everything that lives will die at sometime, this is part of the cycle and we should not be surprised that the same fate will fall on us. Some live short lives and others long lives but at the end of the day we all die. Is there anyone who thinks they will live forever? I thought David Bowie might have managed that, he didn’t as he was only human after all. Keith Richards is so well pickled on the inside that he may well live to be 150, even he will die eventually and he is suffering from Arthritis so it may well be sooner than that.

In the winter everything dies off, trees go to sleep and their leaves are shed when they die. The leaves will lie until they decay into the ground to feed the soil and bring the plants back again in the spring. Everything feeds everything on this planet. The top of the food chain will feed those at the bottom of the food chain. Everything is connected to everything else so it should not be any surprise to learn that our lives touch so many others over the course of our time here.

I had a lot of friends at school, school mates and those near where I lived, but lost touch with them over the course of years when they moved away or I moved away. Life is like that, one thing I learned is that people will come into our lives at points when we need them and stay as long as necessary before moving off again. How many of us are still in touch with people we went to primary school with (in the US that relates as elementary school).

Over the years we meet people, make friends and lose friends, the whole process goes on and on repeating. We live our lives and, if we are lucky, we meet people who change things for the better in our lives and then remain for decades.

The music for this post is from Georgie Wonderful (George Harrison) and I don’t own the copyright of the song or video, I found it on YouTube and it is included for your enjoyment.

There was a very strange enchanted boy

The beginnings of a song written by eden ahbez (the lower case was his idea not mine) which was recorded first by Nat King Cole in 1948 and has been covered many times since then. I first heard the song as sung by David Bowie on the Moulin Rouge soundtrack album. The end of the song lyrics have a poignant message but the composer said that “in return” was much more difficult to get as sometimes love is unrequited. The full lyric is “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn, is to love and be loved in return.”

Anyhoo, this week’s theme is love or LOVE, whether you spell it normally or capitalise it. Love is the greatest gift anyone can bestow on another human being. Should you be wondering why, in the current climate in both the UK and the USA, I want to write a post about love when there is so much evidence of hate being the major emotion around these days. I feel that people need reminding that there is another emotion more powerful than hate and that is indeed LOVE.

When you realise that we are all the same and there is only one race – The Human Race – then there is a chance that we can all work together to make life better for everyone. I was watching the History of Comedy series on Sky Arts and this reminded me that humour can change lives, for the better when it is done with love. There are a lot of comedians over the decades who have made huge inroads into changing perceptions and making lives much better than they were before.

I would like to remind people that not very long ago (in the early 1960’s) there was a system in place in the USA (most notably in the Southern States) where black and white were segregated and never allowed to mix. A group from Liverpool heard what had happened in Selma Alabama and then had their manager, Brian Epstein insure that their tours specified no segregated audiences or they would refuse to perform. As they grew in stature the civil rights leaders met the group (Malcolm X and Martin Luther King) and they were helped in return to get their message of a single race across to the masses as well as the leaders of both countries. Shame racism is still rampant across a lot of the USA being perpetrated now by the leader of the country. At least in the UK racists are being sent to jail every time they step out of their door mouthing their poison or attacking others.

Comedy can be used to change perceptions, just the same as music can. Musicians have used their voice to make the public aware of what is happening under their noses. We can see examples of this throughout the 20th century. From Frank Sinatra and the Rat Pack, to Elvis Presley, Chuck Berry, Buddy Holly, Fats Domino and Jerry Lee Lewis of the Rock and Roll era first wave. Just to prove that music is an international language and refuses to recognise skin colour as a barrier to the message. There have been comedy duos working to get the message of one race across to the masses as well.

When we realise that there is only one race – the human race – we can end hate, work together and get more done. Inclusion does not reduce anyone’s voice or rights, inclusion increases everyone’s rights and voices. We have the power to do good in this world by opening the eyes of the haters to show that we will no longer stand silently by while they challenge our sensibilities but we will stand up to show the world that we are all the same and we stand with our comrades wherever they are until we can wipe all evil away.

Here is the song which gave this post it’s title, enjoy but the copyright is not mine.

You were perverted too

This title is a line from a song by George Harrison (one of 4 compositions he wrote and the Beatles recorded for The Beatles (The White Album). I watched the complete Concert For George again today and was taken by how much like a young George Harrison his son Dhani looked. Olivia made the comment and it was announced by Paul McCartney as “Olivia said that with Dhani up on stage it looks as though George stayed young and we’ve all aged.”

How many of you out there, dear reader, look in the mirror and wonder where the old woman/man is who is staring back at you? I can’t believe how old I look these days, Caused in the main by a hard living, partying wildly, youth and I’m surprised that I am still here when so many of my friends have left this mortal coil behind. I think I need to take a leaf out of Jack Nicholson’s book and start finding younger friends so that fewer of my friends will die before me.

As with all of the songs written and recorded by George over the years since 1963 (while he was still a Beatle) both with the group and as a solo artist, his warmth shines through and continues to shine long after his death. He recorded a few instrumentals in his time (including one attributed to George and John and included on the Tony Sheridan album).

If George is still watching over us all then I know he would have been proud of the number of people who performed at the Concert for George on the 1st anniversary of his death especially as the songs were all his, apart from Honey Don’t which was by one of his heroes, and the Ringo song Photograph was a song he co-wrote with Richard Starkey although he never released it himself he did have a hand in recording it with Ringo.

I have the bootleg recording in my digital collection of “A Toot And A Snore in ’74” which was John and Paul in the studio again just jamming together while nearly everybody else was “sitting around in awe that there was no friction between (them)”. John Lennon interview from 1980. It was nice that they made up, it’s a shame John died before Live Aid as George and Rich may have agreed to reform The Beatles for that concert had John still been around. It’s a shame that Rich and Paul didn’t consider putting a band together and going out on the road in 2012 as a tribute to the Beatles turning 50. It wouldn’t have been the Beatles, we all know that, however, they could have performed mainly Beatles songs from the Anthology series with a few John and George numbers to commemorate them and billed themselves as Paul and Ringo with an All-Starr Band. Needless to say Rich could have done a few numbers (as he does on his own tours) of both his solo stuff and stuff he sang with the Beatles. Paul does Beatles stuff anyway on his tours so what would have stopped them going out as a duo?

Anyway, with the release in November of the 50th anniversary edition of The Beatles in a multitude of formats including a super deluxe edition of 6cd’s and a blu-ray disc of music, I thought the time was right to revert to George (still, at the time of writing this post, the most recent Beatle to pass). Here then is his song from The White Album “While My Guitar Gently Weeps”, copyright isn’t owned by myself or YouTube where I found the track.

And even since I knew it all so clear

Well, it’s Sunday again, another end of week-end (for most of working age). I haven’t really got anything to write about this week but it’s time for me to stop putting off writing and letting you know about my pet peeve of the week or what I’ve been up to during the past week, dear reader.

There hasn’t been anything in particular which has pissed me off this week, I haven’t been up to much either, for a change. I still don’t have a job and the money is lasting because I haven’t been impulse buying as much. However, when told I have to stop spending money it becomes a red flag to a bull, depressing me and the best way to get out of the depression before things get too dark is to – spend money.

I made a huge purchase last week, 7 nights in Dubai for £1500 and paid it in full. That was total cost for 2. Unfortunately I booked the wrong hotel, however, when my wife checked the hotel I had booked she said she would let me off as it was the same price she had seen and was better than the hotel she had found.

I wonder how many of my readers have bought the new Paul McCartney album (Egypt Station)? I received it on the day of release and was dubious of how it would sound as the blurb said it was a departure from the last few albums released by Macca and was a return to his earlier solo sound. I gave it a listen and was pleasantly surprised. His voice has sounded off key when he has performed live in recent years so I was concerned about that, I needn’t have worried though as with the studio tricks they can perform now his voice sounds great. He can perform almost the entire album live as well so that will please the fans who will be queuing up for tickets when they go on sale.

I saw McCartney in concert in early 1973 on the Red Rose Speedway tour, with Wings. I really enjoyed that performance not least because Wings were a great band but also because Macca took a back seat to allow others in the group to share lead vocals. I doubt he will do that when it is only his name up in lights. I don’t know who will be backing him on tour but won’t rush to buy a ticket to see him again.

Ringo is on tour this year back in the USA and Europe but no UK dates. Why does Rich not tour in the UK do you think? Could it be that he has had enough of being pulled to pieces by the British critics? They can be harsh and more so to Rich than any of the other 3 previous members of the Fab Four. I listened to an interview on American tv with Paul McCartney and he said it was John who split the Beatles in 1969. In my view it was a mixture of them all. After all, George left then was persuaded to return, Ringo then left saying he’d had enough, but returned after a few days. Paul objected to Allen Klein being brought in to manage the group and decided his future father-in-law was going to manage his career so enter two managers to replace Eppy. With all the bickering every time they got together and having enough recorded material for 2 single albums or a double album, Lennon announced that he wanted a divorce from the other 3.

Having been asked to keep it under wraps until they decided what to do with the songs they had, John didn’t say anything to anyone about having left the group. He even went back into the studio with Phil Spector to record some funnies for inclusion in the songs that George Martin wanted nothing to do with which later became their last album Let It Be although it had been recorded prior to the sessions for Abbey Road.

Rich was the one chosen to speak to Paul McCartney who had announced several months before the release date for his first solo album and this had coincided with the release date for the last Beatles album. Neither album suffered bad sales because of this so the fears from Allen Klein were definitely unfounded. Of course McCartney was not the first solo Beatle record, that honour belongs to George Harrison with his Music from Wonderwall soundtrack album (Paul McCartney also had a soundtrack album the year before but he didn’t officially appear on it).

All of this has been laid to rest finally and it’s nice to hear Paul talking about his late songwriting partner with reverence. The news took us all by surprise and for a long time after it was Paul’s off the cuff remark that Lennon’s assassination was a “Drag” that remained in the public imagination. Those of us familiar with Beatles-speak knew what he meant but the media made a lot more of it at the time than it deserved. It was nice that Paul and John had once more worked together in the studio in 1974 (see the bootleg “A Toot And A Snore in 74”). Most of the guys in the studio, according to Lennon were standing around watching John and Paul perform old Rock ‘n’ Roll Standards for inclusion on the Lennon album simply called Rock ‘n Roll released in 1975.

Music today is also from the 1960’s before it was revised for a number one single a few years later. The song is copyright by Warner Bros and is found on YouTube so please enjoy Reflected.

A simple relief from this

As put in song in the 1960’s the message was really simple and put succinctly by Macca’s songwriting buddy of the time – John Lennon. Macca has added his voice to the mix several times but this is his best reply yet to “Give Peace A Chance”. All we want is some peace in our lives “All You Need Is Love” as the greatest songwriting duo of recorded music put it in 1967 (OK it was mainly penned by John but I’m sure Macca added some sentiments to it).

There is becoming less acceptance recently, hatred seems to be gaining in popularity again but we don’t need it or want it. What we do need and want is some stability from our leaders and acceptance of everyone’s differences. After all we are all unique, there is only one of each of us. Acceptance of everyone doesn’t mean we become less than we are, that’s not how it works. We become better people and better citizens if we accept our differences and embrace them in others. It makes no difference what colour of skin people are in, whether they are male, female or non-binary, trans or straight, gay or not.

Some of my friends when I was growing up have turned out to be gay, so what? I have met a lot of lesbians over the years and feel better able to accept myself because I got to know them. I refuse to discriminate against anyone on first meeting, however, if you put down someone because of their skin colour, gender, sexual preference or any other unimportant facet of their being I will stop calling you a friend.

I hate to see people, especially children, thrown out of their homes by war and left to find shelter where they can. Surely in the 21st Century we can show some humanity and allow people to migrate to safety from war zones? Yes I know every country has limited resources but if these refugees were allowed in without checks at the border, given nothing as a handout but were allowed legally to work and find housing for themselves wouldn’t they be less likely to be terrorists?

Separating children from their parents is cruel and heartless and should be banned by every head of state in the Western World. Terrorists come in with refugees because they get handouts and can plot for the future. If they had to work to earn money for food and clothing for themselves and their families they would be less likely to plot. Don’t provide houses for refugees but give them somewhere warm and dry to live with adequate facilities but no luxuries and they will work and increase the resources for everyone. If you trust people most will be worthy of that trust and those that aren’t can always be sent back to where they came from.

With a track from his new album (Egypt Station) which I bought the day it was released I present for your delectation courtesy of Universal Music via YouTube Paul McCartney, the copyright to this music is owned by Macca and Universal Music not me but please enjoy.